2 posts tagged “springtime”
It's so strange, where I am now. I have put some distance between myself and some of the difficult things which have happened to me. I fought so hard and bravely against being a victim. I didn't want to be anyone's victim. I guess sometimes some things are out of your control.
But I don't want to be anyone's pawn. I don't want to buy into anyone
else's vision. I still want to have my own. I don't want to recognize
that it's not a woman's world. I am so angry about that. And many
other things
You have to live spherically, in many directions. Never lose your childish innocence, and things will come your way.
This is the advice in a movie I just saw. I just have to move forward slowly, and I think the world will open again. I don't know exactly how yet. But I will just keep dreaming, and building, and one day I will be happy.
(for someone awakening to the trauma of his past - john o'donohue, to bless the space between us)
For everything under the sun there is a time.
This is the season of your awkward harvesting,
When pain takes you where you would rather not go,Through the white curtain of yesterdays to a place
You had forgotten you knew from the inside out;
And a time when that bitter tree was plantedThat has grown always invisibly beside you
And whose branches your awakened hands
Now long to disentangle from your heart.You are coming to see how your looking often darkened
When you should have felt safe enough to fall toward love,
How deep down your eyes were always owned by somethingThat faced them through a dark fester of thorns
Converting whoever came into a further figure of the wrong;
You could only see what touched you as already torn.Now the act of seeing begins your work of mourning.
And your memory is ready to show you everything,
Having waited all these years for you to return and know.Only you know where the casket of pain is interred.
You will have to scrape through all the layers of covering
And according to your readiness, everything will open.May you be blessed with a wise and compassionate guide
Who can accompany you through the fear and grief
Until your heart has wept its way to your true self.As your tears fall over that wounded place,
May they wash away your hurt and free your heart.
May your forgiveness still the hunger of the woundSo that for the first time you can walk away from that place,
Reunited with your banished heart, now healed and freed,
And feel the clear, free air bless your new face.
Here are my favorites this week from my Twitter feed. I can use up to 140 characters for each... and this is my favorite creative project recently. Constraints are surprisingly liberating! Please send me feedback.
true love's shadow / a spark can not burst / to flame
but in the presence of the other
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Found: on concrete city floor
iridescent
winged butterflies
huge shattered moths
four inch tiger-striped
wasps.
Beauty misdirected.
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springtime -
motherhood awaits.
pen beckons. heed it -
and then you, my dear, will
blossom into flame